Initially I struggled to find inspiration for this next blog
post. I struggled, even though so much has happened that has
required faith and courage since my last post. I guess I needed to just reflect and bring together
the stories. It’s taken courage, my whole heart and mind, to release these
words.
I recognize in the past few weeks where opportunities to
practice courage have risen up. I’ve had to make choices to be vulnerable, take
risks, ask questions, and trust that situations, problems, and difficulties will
work themselves out. I have found these opportunities at home, work, days off,
and in my personal relationships. My awareness has heightened.
In the past few weeks, I have asked for a raise, taken on a
new position at work, moved out of my sister’s place, found a roommate, moved
to a townhouse, pursued a new relationship, volunteered to help with youth at
church, and decided to intentionally re-discover my creative abilities with
writing and art.
Ahh, breathe.
So much has happened and changed in such a short amount of
time, but in the right time. Much of what has occurred recently, I have long
awaited for. I feel relief and peace,
but still a sense of anticipation and hope. I’m being challenged yet comforted,
encouraged, provided for, and loved.
It took practicing courage and faith to persevere through
the waiting. Now, that courage is manifest in my daily interactions with others
and participating in my life…showing up and being all in.
It’s freeing. I want more. I know there’s more. My character
is still being challenged and formed. I look forward to what’s ahead and know
that hardships and trials are still inevitable. I believe these seeds of
courage planted in me are springing forth. Faith and awareness of Jesus’
presence will guide each step, conversation, and task. I’m covered by his grace
and truth every moment of my day. This brings freedom and joy even though I still see where I fail to listen or seek His face with real courage.
